How can it be

How can it be that my savior died for me when I'm so sinful. How can it be that he is constantly forgiving and never changing when I'm alway sinning and drawing away from him. How can it be that he even knows my name and knows every thought and everything about me. I'm so small and a just another person in this mixed up world, but still he knows EVERYTHING about EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!! How amazing is that:) Day after day after day, I continue to make mistakes and fall away from him but HE NEVER CHANGES AND HE ALWAYS FORGIVES!!! It's so hard to wrap your mind around it and it's so hard to believe but's it's so true. I see it everyday, example of example of how loving, merciful, and caring he truly is. He is right there by us through every victory, triumph, and battle. How can it be that the scars on his hands were for me and that the lashes on his back were ALL FOR ME!!!! I'm just me, why I am so special and significant that he cared about me that much to do what he did. No greater love has ever been displayed and no greater love ever will be displayed. I truly wonder and ponder how he can love me that much when all I do is sin and sin and sin until the point of no return. No, it can't be that way anymore!!! This is my life and I'm going to take control of it. No matter waiting, no more wondering, no more pondering. I am ready to fulfill the life that God has given me and I'm going to use it with every ability that I have been given. And who will always be there for me when I fall? GOD! And who will be there every step of the way? GOD! And who will be my rock and my shelter? GOD! Who will never fail me and will carry me every time I'm about to fall? GOD! He will my rock, my comfort, my shelter, and my almighty father and creator!!! No one can ever replace him because he was, is, and is to be the greatest father anybody could ever be given!!!!! I AM GOD'S SERVANT, CHILD, AND HE IS MY FATHER IN HEAVEN WHO LOVES ME!!!!