Change

"Life is a journey, not so much to a destination, but a transformation" This line from the movie To Save A Life is the theme of my life right now. In the last year, especially, in the last few months, I have undergone great change. The first semester of my sophomore year was full of many ups and downs, with lots of twists and turns. During those months, I hit rock bottom and really questioned a lot of my beliefs. All though I'm still not completely at the highest point right now, I am slowly recovering with the support of an amazing family and incredible friends. For those closest to me know, I want to thank all of you and say that I truly would not have made it through this rough time without the support of all of you.

I have experienced two great changes in the last month. First of all, I'm single for the first time in almost a year. Yeah it stung like heck when it happned but I wouldn't trade any of it for the world. I fell in love and it was one of the best feelings I've ever experienced. It was by far the best relationship I've ever been in and I am truly thankful to God for allowing me to experience that. My first thoughts after the break up was that once again my heart was broken and that I need to guard it at all costs. In some ways that is true, but in most ways, that's not me at all. I put all of me into any relationship I enter, otherwise, I feel like I'm sitting on the sidelines and I'd rather go through times like this than be sitting on the sidelines waiting for something to happen. I don't know how this plays into God's plan for my life but I do know that all of it happened for a reason and for that, I'm forever grateful to God. I hope she knows that if and when she ever needs me, I will be here with arms wide open ready to be there for her again.

The other big life change that I have undergone is I am now an intern with Christian community on campus, Campus Ambassadors. My junior year of high school, I received my calling in life from Christ and that calling was to go into full time ministry as a youth pastor. This is the first big step in that calling. I know that this is exactly where God wants me and I get crazy excited when I think about that. He has given me a tool to spread his name and make his love known all of this campus and wherever I go. I went bollistic when I found out that I had been appointed as the intern. Unfortunately, I was driving in a car to South Dakota when I found out so it was kinda hard to throw a party when I found out:) Anyways, this is a huge privilege and I am honored that God would chose a person like me to do his work. Nothing beats that feeling!!

If there is one thing I've learned during these past few months, it's that the journey is much more important than the destination. If you get caught up in making the destination, you forget all about the journey and the destination moves farther away. The journey with Christ is full of ups and downs, twists and turns, a lot like a roller coaster. It is really easy to just give up when you hit rock bottom and blame everything on God, but when it all comes down to it, it is God's love, mercy, and compassion that will carry you through those trials. Even though it may feel like God is punishing you, he will never let you fall farther than he wants you to and he will never let anything happen to you that you cannot handle. So always remember that the journey, not the destination, is what makes you who you are. Without the journey, you cannot reach the destination so take each day as it comes and let God handle the rest!!!