Hopeless

Some days, there are days I just feel hopeless and I wonder how God could forgive me for every sin that I have ever committed. Day after day after day, I fail but day after day after day, he continue to forgive me. When I feel so hopeless, I remember and am given hope by the fact that God has forgiven me because he has given us the ultimate freedom! Freedom in Christ! But I still cannot help but wonder why? What makes me so special that I should receive this kind of grace? I am far from deserving of this but all I know is that God possesses the greatest love ever and no one can ever replace that love! Day by day, I'm slowly learning that the only love I can lean on is the love of God. It is unconditional, merciful, caring, and just all around amazing. Every day, I so long to spread this love to everybody that I come in contact with because if they could just experience it, they would realize just how loved they are by their ultimate creator. I am at a very weird place in my life right now. Two months into college, learning how to balance my time, figuring out what I want my life to look like and who I want to spend the rest of my life with. These first two months have gone by so fast and I cannot help but think that in a matter of what feels like a few seconds, I will be out of college and figuring out what I want my life to look like. Life is coming at me in hyperspeed and I want every second to be a blessing to the Lord and to those around me.